hence the title day 2b, I haven't finished day 2 of my blog yet here is another entry. Today's title would probably read better if it said the struggle of being a good mother today!
I started with my daily reading at 9:30a.m. which usually last from 30 min. to an hour. Then I started in on my homework. I am not a student of education, I am taking classes at our church. Sunday night I take a class for codependency, which our homework is reading the given chapter of "CODEPENDENT NO MORE" by Melody Beatty, along with a chapter of our step book. it is a 12 step recovery program through Celebrate Recovery. I would've never in a million years thought anyone would need a 12 step program for codependency. But then again I never knew what codependency really was until I started this class. I am going to quote my favorite part of the book I have read so far. (I am only on chapter 13)
let me start by giving the definition of a codependent
*A codependent person is one who has let another person's behavior affect him or her, and who is obsessed with controlling that persons behavior*
In her book on page 93 she writes
"Jesus helped many people, but He was honest and straight forward about it. He didn't persecute people after He helped them. And He asked them why, too He held people responsible for their own behavior.
I think caretaking perverts Biblical messages about giving, loving, and helping. Nowhere in the Bible we are instructed to do something for someone, then scratch his or her eyes out. Nowhere are we told to walk the extra mile with someone, then grab the persons cane and beat him or her with it. Caring about people and giving are good, desirable qualities-something we need to do-but many codependents have misinterpreted the suggestions to ""give until it hurts"" we continue giving long after it hurts, usually until we are doubled over in pain. It's good to give some away, but we don't have to give it all away. It's okay to keep some for ourselves."
I just LOVE that part of her book! That's my Sunday night homework
Now on Monday nights I am starting a LIFE group where we meet together and we are supposed to live LIFE together growing in scripture and discipleship.
We shall see what comes of that, I have just started.
Tuesday night we are currently studying the book of John in our Firm Foundations class. I love this study. We have a small amount of work daily for each chapter around 30-45 min. of study by an amazing woman whom I won't name because she goes to our church.
So Wednesday morning we have a women of wisdom bible study! This time its pretty deep, we are studying "Faithful Abundant True" by Kay Arthur, Priscilla Shirer, Beth Moore. An amazing study so far.
Then Wednesday night we have our local Celebrate Recovery at church, which I have grown to love as my family! These people are real people, with everday hurts, habits, and hangups. I have watched people literally on the edge of divorce reconcile, and homeless people get married and get back into society. We just love on people and let the love of Christ shine.
All that said, I did all of my whole weeks worth of homework today! starting at 10:30a.m. and didn't finish until almost 8p.m. I did put a pizza in the oven, for the families dinner.
Now why did I do all my homework in one day!
There is a missions conference starting at 9a.m. tomorrow. I have a viewing of a family member I lost last week, then back to the conference. Church Sunday morning and the funeral is Sunday at 1p.m. then back to the finale of the conference at 5:30p.m. And Monday back to all my classes in the p.m.
Oh did I mention that I am a homeschooling teacher for my 8th grade daughter.
I just finished grading her papers, and she is done for the weekend. So I feel like I payed a lot of attention to my homework, but I also feel God gave me ample and special time with each kid. I am so proud that they understand my studying was so crucial this weekend.
I think I need to take them all out for a treat next payday!
My husband came home around 6:30, and said he was waiting for the call from his son. It is now 10:02p.m. And no call.
It breaks my heart to think as a parent, what my husband has to be feeling knowing that your baby is out there doing terrible things to do terrible things to his body.
I know I have to leave it in God's hands, but my husband believes he is going to call? This is where I would love to throw a good dose of reality at my husband. But this to I need to let God deal with! hmmm sounds easier than it is.
Well my son is watching veggietales for the second time tonight! I need to see what "the pirates who don't do anything" are up too!
Goodnight all,
and God bless
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